This I know to be true: Jesus desires a relationship with me even more than I desire one with Him. St. John of the Cross tells us that if a soul is seeking the Beloved, He is seeking her even more. And the Bride of The Song of Songs exclaims in wonder, “I am my Beloved’s and His desire is for me.”
Journals don't work for me, as they do for others. However, of late when talking heart to heart with Jesus, I have felt free to say what I am feeling even when it's anger towards Jesus. And He comes back lovingly reminding me of how He was there for me. It's hard to explain, but the result is feeling loved and secure in His arms.